There are some things we think we are prepared for but no we are not. When God brings us to that particular thing we’ve been praying for; the so called will of God He gives us, then we see how unprepared we are for it. Change is one of the things that is hard for humans. We become so used to how we used to do things or the things we experience.
The day I heard that the Nysc call-up letter was out, my heart was doing Kikuuuum, banging in my ribcage. I had my choices planned in my heart , a part of me wanted Kano, the other wanted Abuja while the last part wanted the will of God. Abuja being that someone was working on it for me, while on the other hand Kano was my heart choice. On that day at night while loading the page on my phone, it refuse to open being that there was a lot of traffic on the site, I was disturbed and worried. Different thoughts like maybe I ain’t going with this batch went through my mind.
The page finally came up and the first letter I saw was “K”, my heart flipped, when I saw the remaining letters I shook my head like no, no, no. This is not it, this is not your will. Mind you as I had the other choices in my heart, I was still praying for His will. But when I saw the state I dismissed the fact that I had prayed.
And when I told my mum, she said I wasn’t going. We began to make calls to different people so I could change the state. To no avail it didn’t work out. I made up my mind not to go but rather ditch it and go the next batch. One of my friend said any state I’d be posted to next would be farther. And then my Sister advised I should go since its just for a year.
My experience in Kogi state was like going out of my comfort zone. I was in a no man’s land, I didn’t know anyone there. It was as though God brought me to it just to build me. It was a process.
Anyone that knows me very well would know I am an ambivert, I only communicate very well with people I become close to. I lacked the boldness to network which is one of the key things one need in this life. Like I said before I was brought out of my comfort zone, I was given the privilege to serve in NCCF and the post was one in which you had to meet new people, communicate with them,be bold and state your mind. A post I didn’t think I could handle.
I was stretched, broken, crushed, taken through the fire and brought out refined. At a point I thought, NO, this isn’t God’s will. Why would I have to go through all these just to gain what. I enjoyed every bit of it even though there were times I cried, prayed, groaned and grumbled. I came out stronger. I came out changed.
God’s will is not all rosy and as far as he has said it, He will surely do it. One of the assurance he has given us is that when we pass through waters,rivers and fire, he will be there with us. All through the so called process he was there.
Now one of the things we crave for earnestly as humans is the fastest route. We don’t want to go through any process but have the end result immediately. We do not like delayed gratification. God promised Abraham a land he would show him. He had to go through several journeys and famines before he got to the Promised Land. He didn’t just get to the land. He went through lots of processes. I can imagine if it were this present generation, we won’t be patient enough to get to the land. If you rush to eat something that you think is appealing to the eyes or sweet you might end up vomiting.
You know, God is not a magician. There might have been prophecies made concerning our lives too that has not come to pass. What are the things we are doing to make it come to pass? Are you just sitting, waiting for it to happen?
Imagine, Christ fasted for forty days and night. So who are you to say you don’t Joke with your food because you feel fasting is suffering yet you want to do greater works,and you admire the wonders God wrought through others.
Everything in life requires a process. The stage you’re going through now is an experience which will yield greatness in future. God brought it to you so you can go and grow through it. Because it isn’t rosy doesn’t mean it is not God’s will.
Stand, arise and move out of your comfort zone. 
It might not be awesome or appealing to you but then all these too shall pass.
I love you all always…
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